I'm doing better. :) I think that's evident with the few posts that have been made, but we're not dwelling on that.
"There Was No Thief"
For a time I thought there was a thief among us
I thought I'd track him down but prior to my pursuit
The smoke had cleared and to my disbelief
There was no thief cause it was me
That lost you
I guess it's safe to say you're never coming back (Oh oh oh oh)
And I understand why you wouldn't want to (Oh oh oh oh)
I guess it's up to me to find a way to get to you
And there's just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all of this I've made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me
And I can't see you
Getting used to
Living in the midst of your perfection
And I'm so lost
How can you trust
Somewhere the sun is always shining?
Oh
Oh
And there's just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all of this I've made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me
I guess it's safe to say you're never coming back
For a time I thought there was a thief among us
I thought I'd track him down but prior to my pursuit
The smoke had cleared and to my disbelief
There was no thief cause it was me
That lost you
I guess it's safe to say you're never coming back (Oh oh oh oh)
And I understand why you wouldn't want to (Oh oh oh oh)
I guess it's up to me to find a way to get to you
And there's just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all of this I've made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me
And I can't see you
Getting used to
Living in the midst of your perfection
And I'm so lost
How can you trust
Somewhere the sun is always shining?
Oh
Oh
And there's just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all of this I've made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me
I guess it's safe to say you're never coming back
If you're considering me the speaker. You are mistaken.
Strangely, this song is not making me hopeful. It's giving me something to understand whether it's accurate or not. It's a point of view that I can grasp and learn to let go of. It's easier than considering malice.
I don't believe it was malice.
So it comforts me and that's the only explanation I have.
I've come to accept the reality of it all. It's still a little painful, but it's not taking over my life or my thoughts. I'm moving on and I hope that soon it'll be to an even greater degree.
